i scream and scream and scream no one ever hears me im so bitter because im not sure what i want or who i am i scream sanity sanity and no one ever bats an eye i sit in a room full of people sanity scream sanity and no one bats an eye but thats okay no its not im confused dazed even amazed even by the possibility could it? i dont know myself fully and no one does i hide from myself everyone does scream for me pretty boy scream for me pretty girl and no one ever knows place my hand where you will im your vessel take me wherever you want i am your vessel and a single word picks me up and tosses me limply aside like the dolls i never had because im a boy no one can see im just a boy my brother fucked me not literally though as if there's a difference, and made me hide it from myself queer gay faggot homo boys loving boys and boys loving girls cock cunt balls arms legs whats the difference i'll tell you predator and prey im not a predator so i have to be prey i refuse to be him so i have to be gay what do i do huh? what do i do? when being myself means becoming you? so you want it? come and get it im not your faggot anymore therapeutic pronounciation and maybe i like girls so much to work through like the innate sense of shame when everytime its like saying your name xxxxxxx xxxxx xxxxxx i try and try but you always win touch me baby im scared, you love it isnt this what they've all been waiting for my eventual downfall my questioning now look whos winning this kamikazee game i'll never run again everythings changed.
sanity scream sanity
05/11/2004 11:48 am
written in my cha! cha! ta-da on saturday may 9th 2004
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