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happy new years
01 January, 2004 04:17

this one was worse.

worse than london.

i should have seen it coming.

i think i did.

i've been scared lately.

of what?

does it matter?

i thought i'd left it all behind.

i didn't.

i had a break.

i was online with erin.

i'm re-reading some of the things i said.

what the fuck?

i used to smoke.

who knows this.

no one.

for three months

i dont remember getting most of them.

but there was a cigarette in my hand and a lighter in the other.

i cut myself today.

psychotic breaks huh?

i blacked out for most of it.

i need to write this down because im afraid i'll forget it.

happy new years guys :D

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